Mereka bilang aku jahat
brutal, anarkis, apatis
tolong sampaikan salamku sama Tuhan

KELUHAN itu membunuh saya pelan-pelan..
dan saya sangat SEDIH...
sepeti mau mati rasanya.

seperti sudah MATI RASA menikmati kepunahan ini dikeseharian. seperti TIDAK PEDULI tapi mau TERIAK.

lo pikir baju lu item...

temen terkenal lu se abreg...

rambut lo gondrong/panjang...

gelang lu se gambreng/semewah apa...

tattoo lu seabrek...

piercingan lu meraja lela....

dandanan lo mewah...

trus lu merasa lebih ok?

HUAHAHA...

hati saya lebih hitam dari baju dan eyeliner mu kawan!

pertanyaan fundamental pagi ini : Kenapa banyak orang yang harus berpikir berat dan menyusahkan diri sendiri, padahal hal yang dipikirkannya itu adalah sesuatu yang seharusnya bisa membuat mereka bahagia ? Tetapi kenapa harus menjadi suatu beban ? Apa sebenarnya yang ada dibalik pikiran mereka? Mengapa mereka tidak membuat sesuatu yang menyenangkan ? Apa karena ada sebuah pernyataan "Kalo nggak gitu gak seru, hidup jadi flat" ?

Friendship Comes In Different Colors & Sizes. by Everett L Walls

That love can come to us in ways we never expected it to… by karen farell jaworski

bus story

Me: “Alright, I think I’m gonna leave. How far away are you? You’re in downtown now? Alright.”

The bus is my only friend in these parts. Carries me here and there with just a swipe of a uni-tone card. Doesn’t talk. Doesn’t need to. Picks me up and drives me to where I want to go. Drops me off where I need to be. Symbiotic.

That’s not true, now that I think of it.

My other friends are an MP3 player and a bookbag.

Carry a tune, carry a verse.

Location : lesehan mie rebus Alun-alun Semarang
Theme : foto pusing

kronologis : biar gw ceritakan sedikit ya, waktu itu sepulang dari Lawang Sewu, Semarang, kami kelaperan. karena waktu itu udah sekitar jam 2 malam, jadi cuma tukang mie rebus aja yang masih buka. Tempatnya didepan sebuah hotel, gw aja lupa nama hotelnya, yang jualan sepasang suami istri gitu. Akhirnya kami makan mie rebus tek-tek disitu. lokasinya emang jauh dari mewah, tapi gw pikir tempat makan mewah bakalan lewat seru sama enaknya kalo kami yang makan. Fotonya cuma satu disini, dah gitu ngeblur lagi, biar gw tebak, pasti Adit yang ambil gambarnya.

(Alfi, Tina, Roni, Rona, Icah (kerudung), Eva, Nura, Aan, Bu'Vera(belakang alfi))

kemaren sore sebelum saya pulang kerumah
sempat nya saya pergi membeli beberapa sayuran di supermarket
mama saya sakit, jadi saya berinisiatif untuk membuat sedikit kejutan dirumah
akhirnya saya putuskan untuk membeli beberapa bungkus brokoli hijau, dan beberapa potong dada ayam fillet
setelah sampai dirumah, baru keesokan harinya saya masak bahan makanan yang sudah saya beli itu
yah, beberapa jam saya habiskan didapur, setelah itu, nah ini dia hasilnya, masakan tanpa nama sepertinya. selamat makan mama, cepet sembuh ya surga...

rongsokan materi
melipat dunia
dunia terbentuk lipat

rongsokan materi
menembus tulang tengkorak
leburan otak
saluran eusthacius terisi lendir otak

rongsokan materi
penuhi kerongkongan
meremas melata mengalir
sampai jantung

rongsokan materi
hingga jantung mati rasa
itu detak atau mati
anjing!

meledak ya?

tak apa menangis, biar semua uneg-uneg habis
jangan percaya setan yang bilang menangis itu
tak baik untuk kesehatan, tak bagus untuk kemulusan
kulit. yang bilang begitu setan! yang bilang begitu
pasti pantatnya kurapan!

kita semua bersalah
atas lupa yang menahun
dan pikiran rabun

aku bertanya kepada temanku, apa yang beratkan pikiranmu malam ini?

mencari engkau yang hilang
dan kita meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak meledak
meledak meledak

meledak.

stupid stupid an........

from my friend Bagas
Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do/did my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten mushrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[x] I am in love with love
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm not good at remembering names.
[x] I'm not good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

Buckethead

Buckethead

Buckethead lahir dengan nama asli Brian Patrick Carroll pada 13 Mei 1969. Mungkin Buckethead bukan nama yang dikenal, di kalangan penyuka gitaris pun kayaknya juga gak terkenal2 amat (kecuali mungkin penampilannya). Ya, memang Buckethead ini punya penampilan khas: Pake topeng putih polos + pake topi yg terbuat dari bucket ayam KFC yang dikasi tulisan "FUNERAL" dibawahnya !

Hahaha, memang betul, saya juga gak tahu kenapa dia pake bucket ayam KFC buat dijadiin topi. Dia pernah bikin pernyataan begini: "my mission in life is to alert the world to the ongoing chicken holocaust in fast-food joints around the globe", weird...

Gitaris aneh ini sudah merilis sekitar 20 album lebih yang hampir di tiap albumnya karakter musiknya agak berubah2. Musik yang dia mainin punya range besar mulai dari jazz, funk, fusion, flamenco, rock, metal, industrial, progressive rock, ambient dan electronic. Cara main gitarnya pun berubah-ubah sesuka dia.

Dalam hal skill mungkin Buckethead jauh lah kalo dibandingkan sama Steve Vai, Joe Satriani, Steve Howe, Yngwie Malmsteen dan begawan-begawan gitar lain yang mainnya gila-gilaan. Tapi ya saya memang bukan tipe orang yang skill oriented, bodo amat lah sama skill yang penting kan gak stuck di tempat, yang penting berani berubah-ubah, yang penting kreativitas hahahaha.

Dengan segala keanehan (dalam hal penampilan maupun penampilan) ternyata Buckethead sangat dihormati oleh forum-forum dan pengamat musik (khususnya ttg gitar). Buckethead ini #8 "Top 20 Greatest Guitar Shredders of All Time" versi majalahGuitarOne, "25 all-time weirdest guitarists" dan "50 fastest guitarists of all time list" versi majalah Guitar World.

Akhir-akhir ini Buckethead sering tampil tanpa logo KFC + tulisan "FUNERAL" di topi bucket-nya, gak tahu karena ada legal action buat dia atau gimana. O iya, satu lagi, mungkin ada yang pernah tau Buckethead sebelumnya, dia pernah jadi gitarisnyaGuns 'N Roses sekitar tahun 2004an tapi cuma sebentar...

capee....hari ini gw keTA alias tanahabang sama tmn gw, icah,
gw cari kain bahan buat display pameran tugas akhir gw nanti,
terus biasa ga ketinggalan gw selalu beli baju bali,,hahahha....ga tau dah berapa banyak baju bali gw di lemari, tapi masih pengen beli aja...huohohoho...
abis itu icah pulang, gw ngelayap ke mall deh,
gw sempet makan sushi di ichiban, terus beli buku di gramedia,
biasa gw selalu jalan sendiri kaya orang bener,
pas mau pulang gw keinget temen gw,
nah keinget kan, nah lo, terus gw beli cake,
pas gw beli dan udah gw bayar, gw baru mikir, hahhaa...buat apaan yakk....
tanpa gw pikir lagi pertanyaan gw tadi, gw langsung ngeloyor pulang, udah magrib soalnya, males pulang malem2...
pas sampe kosan, tadinya mau langsung gw makan tuh cake nya, agak sayang sih pas ke inget temen gw lagi,hahha,,,goblog dah ,
akhirnya biar gw gak nyesel2 amat, gw foto dulu deh cake nya...
terus gw makan...maaf ya teman, cake nya gw lahap sendiri, abis bingung mau diapain, daripada bulukan mending gw makan..ahahhaa.....

ini dia cake nya...selamat !

glory

keep in silent
dont talk to much
just walk with me
cause everybody was changging in every second
it was sucks

LIFE IS SO COOL
Jarang banget gw ngomong gitu, hehe.. baru kali ini gw bener-bener menyadari dan bersyukur, apa yang gw udah jalanin ini begitu banyak kemudahan yang diberikan dari Tuhan. Mudah-mudahan gw akan terus bersyukur, mempelajari dan memeluk suatu agama, menghilangkan pikiran-pikiran buruk gw tentang sesuatu hal. Gw berkomitmen untuk ‘tersenyum’ setiap bangun tidur

life is a tape recorder

Jika hidup adalah sebuah tape recorder,
Saya pasti ada pada tombol “pause”, diam tak berkutik..tak bersuara.

Jika hidup adalah sebuah tape recorder,
Saya pasti senang menjadi tombol “rewind”
Mengingat semua yang sudah terjadi sambil tertawa sekaligus menangis.

Jika hidup adalah sebuah tape recorder,
Saya terlalu takut untuk menjadi tombol “forward”, karena tidak tahu apa yang akan saya lihat dan dengar.

Jika hidup adalah sebuah tape recorder,
Saya bisa saja menjadi kasetnya.
Tapi, kapan kasetnya akan penuh jika tidak pernah menjadi tombol “rec”?

deep

i think images are worth repeating;
things born anew display new meanings.
i'm not an urban idiot savant spewing paint without any order.
i'm no sphinx, no mystery enigma.
what i paint is very ordinary.
if you're looking for a deeper meaning,
i am as deep as this high ceiling.

yes i can doin with my self
leave me, and let me thinking hard
i can do it with my self
back to my bad habit
never ask me about love
cause it so limited in my head
Soon my lucky day will arrive
I know that before my death
surely my luck will change


I'm left waiting for my luck
But my luck took another course
Surviving a reality
of which I could never escape.
In order to eat, you have to search for what's real
Although I know this is a society of rules
Off to prison my friendship writes
Don't rush because your luck will change
Hey, you'll see

And it boils
Burns
Up from my toes
Churning in my stomach
Burning up my throat
It swirls in my mouth
Twisting and
Twisting
It around my tongue
Until it turns black
And I spit it out
Walk away
Burn again, burn again
My mouth is numb with the inky poison of you
The harder it is to spit you out
The more you come back
The worse you taste

look im a little weird

look im a little wei

teman hari ini

saya selalu mencoba untuk berbuat baik kepada teman-teman saya
tapi terkadang tanggapan mereka berbeda
seperti hari ini, saya mencoba tersenyum untuk seorang teman saya
tapi saya tau dia tidak tersenyum dengan sepenuh hati kepada saya
selalu saya yang menyapa mereka terlebih dulu
apa ada yang salah dengan saya?
saya selalu berusaha untuk tidak membuat suasana menjadi membosankan
selalu bertanya dan tersenyum, mencoba untuk mengerti paa yang dipikirkan teman-teman saya
tapi mereka tidak pernah merasakannya
kadang saya merasa semua interaksi yang saya berikan tidak berarti sama sekali untuk teman saya itu
seperti hari ini, coba saja jika tidak saya yang menyapanya terlebih dulu, sudah dapat dipastikan teman saya itu tidak akan menyapa saya
sebenarnya apa yang ada dipikiran mereka
yah, saya memang tidak terlalu dekat dengan beberapa teman saya itu
saya juga tidak pernah berharap sebuah imbalan yang berarti
hanya sebuah senyuman kecil dan sapaan hangat yang ikhlas dari dalam hati
saya tidak berharap lebih kok,
bukannya saya perhitungan, tetapi seringkali selalu saya yang menyapa teman saya itu,
pernah sesekali dia menyapa, tapi itu juga karena ada maunya
entahlah, sepertinya saya tidak pernah membuat beberapa itu marah,
tapi jika saya pernah membuat beberapa orang teman saya itu tersinggung atau apapun itu
pasti saya akan minta maaf
apa mungkin saya yang terlalu perasa
ah, tidak, sudah beberapa kali saya merasakan hal yang serupa dengan hari ini
tidak mungkin saya bercerita dengan teman saya yang juga teman beberapa saya itu
karena suasana akan memburuk
maaf teman, jika terjadi kesalahan mohon dimaafkan
otak kritis saya terus berjalan hari ini
hanya untuk mencari sebuah pembenaran tentang beberapa teman

ini hanya sebuah cerita hari ini, terimakasih sudah membacanya

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